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A New Year. The Same God.

As a new year dawns I find myself in that very familiar place of looking back and looking forward in the same motion.  I'm still writing the wrong year on everything and I am still remembering things I needed to get done that didn't quite make the checklist.  I'm making plans for days that haven't come and starting to analyze things that may not even happen. I find myself filled with resolve mingled with regret.  It's the process of leaving one year behind and diving into the next. But this new year seems different somehow.  It sounds strange but looking back I can remember feeling anxiety over the unknown that is to come.  I didn't think much about it then, but it was part of the process.  It seemed almost second nature to walk forward with hesitant steps.  There was hope and a brightness to the future but it all seemed to be throttled by the unknown.  It felt like turning a corner with your head first in stead of your feet, always checking the sidelines to s